Wednesday, March 30, 2011

Heart

Proverbs 2: 1-8

"My son, if you accept my words and store up my commands within you, 2turning your ear to wisdom and applying your heart to understanding,3 and if you call out for insight and cry aloud for understanding, 4and if you look for it as for hidden treasure, 5then you will understand the fear of the LORD and find the knowledge of God. 6For the LORD gives wisdom, and from his mouth come knowledge and understanding. 7He holds victory in store for the upright, he is a shield to those whose walk is blameless, 8for he guards the course of the just and protects the way of his faithful ones."


I love Proverbs.

2: applying your heart to understanding; now thats a smack in the face. How many people half heartedly do stuff? I do. Something you don't want to do, but are forced to do? Or, you're not fully committed to doing it, you think its a cool thing, but you're feeling lazy? Like devo's. You open your Bible and quote something on facebook; check the box and call it good. Now aren't you the cool christian kid? Next time you do your Bible reading/box checking, apply your whole heart to it. Do you know what will happen? Mind. Blown.

3, 4, 5: and if you look for it as for hidden treasure; Yeah, treasure. The Bible is full of hidden treasure just waiting to be found treasure. No one said the Bible would have answers just laid out in plain english, telling me the answers to all my questions, you have to apply your whole heart. Dig for it. Hidden treasure is usually buried. just sayin. 4) Pray your heart out, pray to God like its your calling. Pray to him like you're madly in love and haven't spoken in months. Cry out to him. 5) Once you've done what is in verse 4, then God will communicate back. How? Not necessarily in words heard, or feelings felt, but through his word, the Bible. When that happens, gather your mind back together...it'll be blown again.

6, 7, 8: For the LORD gives wisdom, and from his mouth come knowledge and understanding; and spending time in your relationship with God he'll show you all sorts of things. The LORD will bless you with knowledge and wisdom, but he won't GIVE it to you. That would be a genie god. You will earn it through talking and searching for it like that hidden treasure. Spend time with the big G man, throw the ol' pigskin around and hang out. :)




I want to read a book of the Bible a month, but I want to finish a few days before the end of the month so that i'm looking forward to what i'll be reading the next month. Proverbs fits well with its 31 verses.

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anthony

Tuesday, March 29, 2011

Hand

Proverbs 1:19;

"Such are the paths of all who go after ill-gotten gain; it takes away the life of those who get it." 


I've been broken hearted over women before, and there is a constant theme on why they don't want to be in a relationship with me, "We both need to grow in God first," or bestest yet "God told me so."

Hmph. Sounds like God is speaking profound things to the girls I like. I wish he would say to me, "Nah, boy, not this girl." Then I could be like, "Oh honey, you're sweet and all but God told me so, its not you."

But the truth is; people use God as a cop out. Usually people get in too deep for what they were looking for, they let themselves actually Love. Scary, I know. Or, they weren't in as much Limerence* as they thought they were, and when the honeymoon state of how awesome the other person is over, "God told me so." pops out.

So how do I deal with it? First, I don't get mad at God. I know he's not audibly yelling at these girls to breakup with me. Second, I think about them. Who were they? Did they really like me? Did they love me? Most of the time they didn't, it was me who had the feelings. Thirdly, I get really sad. I mean, what did I do to tick off God? Does he not want me to have a relationship? Fourthly, I realize that God is amazing, I pray to him, and I find peace in his presence and his word. Thats usually when I find the diamond in the coal; the smack in the face. I'm going to take a step here and say that God actually wants me to have a relationship. A dang happy one too, but he's kinda weeding out the weak. I make belief conversations in my head with God; I feel he chuckles at them but gives me some incite in my own head. Here's one:

ME: Hey Big G, I see you're speaking to these girls again. It hurts for them to leave. Just saying, maybe one could stay?

BIG G: Oh one will stay champ. But who were these chicks you were toying around with? Here, lets go for a walk. Take my hand, and I'll show you what you get.

ME: I'm scared to take your hand...

BIG G: What i'm taking you too is worth the fear of trusting me.

So I take his hand, and for a few months life is amazing.

Then I let go of it.


And i'm right back where I started, chasing someone I think I love, only to have them commune with the Great and Holy, and break my heart.

But thats the great thing, the Lord is the ultimate artist. He took dirt and made a MAN! I'm sure he can take the pieces of my heart and make something just as wonderful.

Today, I needed a pick-me-up;

"but whoever listens to me will live in safety and be at ease, without fear of harm." Proverbs 1:33. 


I'll listen Lord, i'll take your hand, i'll hold on tight. Now, where we going?



*Psychology the state of being infatuated or obsessed with another person, typically involuntary, and characterized by a strong desire for reciprocation of one's feelings but not primarily for a sexual relationship.